Dreariness, Remembrance, & Thankfulness

We’d like to invite anyone who’s been following our story to join us on December 2nd for a memorial for Arthur. Much of it will be a worship service as we grieve Arthur’s death but acknowledge his new life in the presence of Jesus! Please see below or click the link or whatever Laura decides to do to get the details for the memorial.

We’ve been meaning to post more on ours and Cyrus’ progress, but have been too busy and exhausted to know what to say. Cyrus is doing great, getting more fun and interactive every day and progressing well. He’s about 11 pounds now and feels like a two month old. We had a great time with him this morning, with lots of happy baby chatter and lots of smiles! It was a rare moment of joy in what has been a very dreary month for us.

I don’t know why, but we’ve been feeling worse this month than we have during most of the summer. I was expecting to be feeling better as we get further removed from the painful events of the summer, but it hasn’t worked out that way. A big part of it is the lack of sleep that every parent has to deal with after bringing a baby home for the first time. We’ve been through this before but this time is much worse. Hopefully time will heal whatever is going on with us, but please pray that we can find some rest for our souls and be able to endure with joy instead of feeling dead inside and just going through the motions.

Please also pray that Multicare gets their act together and stops indefinitely delaying Cyrus’ RSV shot! After we excitedly announced Cyrus at Church, our NICU doctor warned us to avoid crowds until he had his shot. His lungs are still very weak and RSV could really hurt him. I don’t know why this wasn’t done before we got discharged, but we’ve been avoiding most gatherings since then, waiting for the medical bureaucrats to finally approve the shot that all his doctors have ordered!

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and we do have a lot to be thankful for. Laura and I are going to have to choose thankfulness as an act of will, but hopefully our emotions will be able to get on board in spite of our current state of mind. I hope you all have a great thanksgiving and remember to give thanks even for life itself. It’s easy to take for granted, but this summer gave us a glimpse of how fragile it is and how blessed we are to have our three kids.